Life Update

I’ve struggled with writing this post for a month and just kept putting it off. In light of some recent events I feel like I need to say something so I can maybe put it to rest for the time being.

I’m getting a divorce.

I might as well go ahead and just lead with that. I am really not even supposed to be talking about it because it isn’t final but since everyone else is I needed to be able to say what I can for now. People talk and a lot of times it’s true. But, a lot of times it isn’t. The truth is somewhere in there but it’s gone through 25 people and it’s not the same story anymore. So if you’re hearing things, I’m just asking for you to respectfully not engage in it.

Marriage is something I’ve never really talked about in this space. There are some things I’ve tried to keep private. I know I open myself up to scrutiny and judgement by just putting my life on the internet, I get it. The problem is when the noise becomes so hurtful and so loud that you feel like you can barely function, it’s consuming.

“If she’s trying to be better and working towards improvement, the most unkind thing you can do is hold her past and her mistakes against her like it’s some kind of weapon.” - Kirsten Corley

I saw that quote on Instagram the other day and it stopped me in my tracks. People make mistakes but there is redemption and grace and forgiveness. THANK GOD. The sadness will take a long time to get over but I have to have faith that life will go on.

Right now, in this season, there are still so many things that bring me joy. My kids are my world and I’d do anything for those precious babies. I still love clothes, fashion and style which always puts a smile on my face. I’ve tried to focus on the things that are currently bringing me joy and some semblance of peace instead of being constantly stressed. Life is going to look different for me and the unknown is terrifying but I know this will only make me a better person.

I am thankful for this space, although sometimes stressful, that has brought me supportive friends and even supportive strangers. Thank you for continuing to allow me to do something that brings me joy. I love you gals.

“Though you feel you have failed, you have not reached the end. There is still time to breathe deep and believe: You are free to start again.” - Morgan Harper Nichols

XOXO